14.06.2012 Thursday

LAST ENTRY IN THIS BLOG 

 

Hey guys :)

So, i totally forgot about my blog here and i am dearly sorry for that!

The time has just been awesome and now i just have 2 weeks left here in Canada.

I figured i would just share some final thoughts with ya and i am really glad that

all of you supported me and cheered me up when i was down. Thank you very much

for that!

 

10 months have passed and now I stand on the brink, of returning to a world where I am surrounded by the paradox of everything and yet nothing being the same.
In a couple of weeks I will reluctantly give my hugs and, fighting the tears, I will say goodbye to people who were once just names on a sheet of paper to return to people that I hugged and fought tears to say goodbye to before I ever left.
I will leave my best friends to return to my best friends.
I will go back to the place I came from, and go back to the same things I did last summer and every summer before.
I will come into town on that same familiar road, and even though it has been months, it will seem like only yesterday.
As I walk into my old bedroom, every emotion will pass through me as I reflect on the way my life has changed and the person I have become.
I suddenly realize that the things that were most important to me a year ago don't seem to matter so much anymore, and the things I hold highest now, no one at home will completely understand.
Who will I call first?
What will I do on my first weekend home with my friends?
Where am I going to work?
Who will be at the party Saturday night?
What has everyone been up to in the past few months?
Who from school will I keep in touch with?
How long before I actually start missing people barging in without calling or knocking?


Then I start to realize how much things have changed, and I realize the hardest part of being an exchange student is balancing the two completely different worlds I now live in, trying desperately to hold on to everything all the while trying to figure out what I have to leave behind.
I now know the meaning of true friendship.
I know who I have kept in touch with over the past year and who I hold dearest to my heart.
I've left my world to deal with the real world.
I've had my hearts broken, I've fallen in love.
There have been times when I've felt so helpless being hours away from home when I know my family or friends needed me the most, and there are times when I know I have made a difference.
Just weeks from now I will leave.
Just weeks from now I take down my pictures, and pack up my clothes.
No more going next door to do nothing for hours on end. I will leave my friends whose random e-mails and phone calls will bring me to laughter and tears this summer, and hopefully years to come.
I will take my memories and dreams and put them away for now, saving them for my return to this world.
Just weeks from now I will arrive.
Just weeks from now I will unpack our bags and have dinner with my familie. I will drive over to my best friend's house and do nothing for hours on end.
I will return to the same friends whose random emails and phone calls have brought me to laughter and tears over the year.
I will unpack old dreams and memories that have been put away for the past year.
In just weeks I will dig deep inside to find the strength and conviction to adjust to change and still keep each other close.
And somehow, in some way, I will find my place between these two worlds.
In just weeks.
Am I  ready?

 

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Kommentare: 3
  • #1

    Juicer Reviews (Donnerstag, 11 April 2013 19:26)

    I shared this upon Myspace! My friends will definitely like it!

  • #2

    Shishi (Donnerstag, 25 April 2013 17:48)

    And know I actually understand this entry!
    My last weeks over here and I can laugh and cry at the same time..
    Miss you <3

  • #3

    Shishi (Donnerstag, 25 April 2013 17:49)

    **now :D